Having Fibromyalgia & defending my passion.

This is what I wanted to say to a woman that asked me why she wasn't getting Host Picks on Poshmark. I responded with my usual answer " SHARE SHARE SHARE" her response back was so stressfull that I started to write this back to her. Fortunately I re-read it & chose to be "MAGNANIMOUS" and say " Poshmark isn't for every one" but I still want to share what I was truly feeling like saying. I hope it isn't offensive to you & forgive me for any hurt feelings.❌❌⭕️⭕️✌️

" I may not have the verbage or the education that most people have. Poshmark is about love and sharing. For me its about what I can give not what I can get. I've already had my success, I retired at the age of 40. I'm a multi millionaire, and I do Poshmark because I want to give back. It's not relevant of how much time I spend sharing. I've been bedridden for almost 3 years. I finally got enough strength to find a new passion, regardless if I make money or not. I make money on my investment. Everything I have I own. I have no debt. I live way under my means. You being a business major, couldn't possibly understand my heart for Poshmark. This is a place for women who need an extra income and a purpose. From what you've said you have your purpose. Maybe Poshmark is not for you. It's not for everybody. Its a little like becoming a born again Christian. You become a follower of Christ because you have faith in a Creator that became a man & died on a cross so we can have a personal relationship with Him and have eternal life. If you haven't had an experienced with the Holy Spirit's love, its difficult to understand. Why else would a person  believe that we were created and placed on this earth to love other people. That is my purpose. I've been extremely blessed in my life. Yes I've had my struggles (fibromyalgia has kicked my butt). But in the end my Creator always gives more to me than I will ever be able to give to other people. That's why I choose to share other peoples closets and talk highly of Manish. He is a man that created a business that women with illnesses like myself can do without much effort. I use to make a lot of money at one time & worked my but off for the all mighry $$. Now that I'm retired, I get to choose how I spend my time. I choose spending my time helping other people. I'm in bed most the day anyway. As far as seeing you on Google+, I did ask people to do a practice run before Poshfest. No one did a practice with me so I didn't think anyone was interested. I do apologize. But that's all I can do is apologize. I appreciate the fact that the three things about you is that you don't tolerate bullshitters or tip toe around how you feel. I appreciate that you don't think that that's what I was doing to you. In the past when I've tried to defend myself because of my illness, most people don't understand it. Having fibromyalgia is a REAL DIAGNOSED CHRONIC ILLNESS. It can cause my brain not a function like a normal person, plus have memory loss. I had to take a lot of medication just to get to Poshfest, yes it was worth it. Even if I helped one person know that they're cared for, are accepted just the way they are, & that they're appreciated. What Manish has done for me by creating Poshmark is keeping me from killing myself. My pain consumes me every day. At one time I was on 16 different medications. When I had to rest and be in bed I started getting fat. I've always been a size 2 to 6. Now I'm a 12. Being in the beauty industry for over 20+ years, it was about how you look...Fashion....what's hot now...not how much college education you've had. It's been 20 years of my life being brainwashed into thinking if ur pretty, u can get what u want. If ur ugly & fat u better get an education. Poshmark has reprogrammed my brain to what's realy important. PoshLove it doesn't come from eBay, Copious, Amazon, or any retail store. Why have you interrogated me about "What has Manish & Poshmark given me for my time?" All I did was let U know how I share the Posh Parties & Co-host's closets way before the party even has a theme. Having a chronic illness, (fibromyalgia & CD) its nessary to keep my mind occupied so I don't think about the pain as much. If you haven't experienced a chronic illness then it would be difficult to understand." 

This is where I stopped & read my words....realizing it would just cause me more stress which makes my fibromyalgia worse. I've learned it's ok to feel angry when someone is attacking something you have a passion for. It's NOT OK to cause more stress by TRYING to defend your passion.